Maihiri Castille (Ma'i)
Born: Maht, Damatta
Age: 225 (25 at change)
Eyes: Green (right) Deep Gold (left)
Hair: Long,Big,Thick, Curly Ombre hair. Dark brown at the top and a lighter chestnut brown at the bottom.
One would believe being a goddess of desire would earn them the adoration of many but most people hold disdain for Ma'i because she represents what they consider taboo in (Kueian) society. They see her simply as a harlot who entices those around her. They prefer to look at what she is rather than who she is. This doesn't bring Ma'i down; she knows who she is and her outspoken nature always overpowers her naysayers. Her very presence demands respect and those who speak out against her are met with a devastating blow to their pride and body.
She represents both Strength and Desire. This fact has left many in her homeland baffled as to how she came to be. A woman representing two very "male" topics seems wrong in the eyes of most. Men have fallen out of favor with the mana of strength and now instead pray to the god of war. Women look at Ma'i confused, some want to know more about her while others stay far away.
Ma'i despite not having many followers still does her job very well. She refuses to stand by and watch the weak be harassed by cowards who claim to be strong. She is a compassionate person and can endure any hardship and keep on fighting. Her defiant nature does lead people to be intrigued by her at times, she isn't one for conforming onto the path set for women in her culture. She is a free-spirit who does what she pleases despite the consequences. A woman very comfortable in her skin and not easily broken by others.
Ma'i felt cheated out of life when she was chosen to be the Goddess of Strength and Desire. Having always felt weak and forced into a life of giving up her body to please others she feels her transformation was a sick joke. Walking the streets and being called a harlot simply for existing just hardens her skin or makes her retaliate often violently. Having people spiral into lust for her or each other just by standing around makes her feel dirty. She hates that people look at her with a disgusted look and aren't afraid to belittle her. She is constantly touched by strangers and has lost all rights to her personal space. Fighting everyday just leaves her sad and alone. She's called a goddess but has never felt like one in her life. She tries to not beat herself up over what others think but as soon as she feels the need for physical affection she feels sick with herself and worse when she gives in.
Constantly fighting against what she enjoys because she feels she shouldn't enjoy it. She tries to not let her insecurities seep externally so she chooses to wear a face unfazed by others. She tries her best to appear comfortable with who she is. She won't put up with others trying to pull her down and those who try she isn't afraid to fight or argue with. Trying to socialize with people has always been hard for her. They either only want one thing from her or nothing to do with her. She even has a hard time figuring out her own feelings for a person from time to time because her social interaction is so limited.
She tries her best to not be defiant and not walk off a path deemed "acceptable" but she can't help but feel how she does. She has to speak up when something is wrong. She enjoys physical affection and as cruel as a person can be to her Ma'i would still show compassion for them. Many times she wished to just shut her mind and heart off to the world but every time something pulls her brings her back to life. Often it's an act of love, something she struggles with. Love is something she never really felt back. She loves easily but she always feels like she's the only one in-love however she'll keep loving that person until they want nothing to do with her anymore. She's used to it and she never argues against anyone who leaves her. She rather not know their reasons. She would love to be with someone but she's used to be being alone at this point. The thought of her with someone is actually comical to her despite her biggest desire is to feel needed by someone. She always feels like she's a burden or temporary to everyone around her so she tries not to even be bothered with hoping for a change.
She gets through life relying on herself and being the rock or voice for others. It's all she knows how to do.